Question:
I have a question for you as I binged today after a week or so of going well. For many years now my no one goal has been finding food freedom. All of my spare time and energy has gone towards that. Compared to ten years ago I now have much more insight and improvement, I know for sure its all to do with the mind, however, I am still not quite there. Although sometimes I can go three or more months without binging which is an incredible improvement to my past, I eventually do binge. So today I realized something after my mindful binge. (I am no longer able to zone out and get that same pleasure as I now know too much and generally practicing mindfulness and present awareness.) I have found two main reasons why I binge. After my long periods of not binging I start to get overconfident and trying sugar again here and there. And that creates cravings which slowly build and get to intense to resist. But the other reason and this is probably the reason I started to binge in the first place is Anxiety. I have had anxiety my whole life. Of course I meditate and do the things that help most however even with constant mindfulness practices eventually my central nervous system is just to wound up and nothing relieves it except overeating or in the past anti-anxiety medication. My anxiety and long term insomnia have always been able to be relieved with binging. When I am not binging, these feelings/and exhaustion from not sleeping are eventually too much to handle so I binge to relive them. in the last year or so it has been a conscious sometimes deliberate and unenjoyable act to get that much-needed relief of relaxation and depression of nervous system. I was wondering what your advice maybe for my reasons for binging. As mentioned in the start my no one priority has been on finding a way to stop binging. But maybe the binging is secondary to the anxiety and I need to look at addressing that as binging may be a symptom? Do you think the two are related? I don't know but am very interested in your response. Also, what do you think about cutting certain trigger foods out to make life easier? I really want this to work more than anything and am 120% committed. I am a single mum and I desperately want my energy back to focus on my son, not food/anxiety!
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